So, today was my mother's birthday. If my calculations are correct, she would have been 71 today. That seems hard to imagine.
Though, I think she would have been an elegant and wise old lady. She was an elegant and wise middle aged woman.
I feel far removed from her these days, I think - as if I don't know her any more. I think I think that, it's hard to know if it's a real thing or just an idea that's popped into my head. The downside of the mellowing of grief is that you lose the person you knew - their voice, their laugh, their immediacy. They fade.
So the idea of her at 71 is ... I don't know: Immaterial?
Though, I think she would have been an elegant and wise old lady. She was an elegant and wise middle aged woman.
I feel far removed from her these days, I think - as if I don't know her any more. I think I think that, it's hard to know if it's a real thing or just an idea that's popped into my head. The downside of the mellowing of grief is that you lose the person you knew - their voice, their laugh, their immediacy. They fade.
So the idea of her at 71 is ... I don't know: Immaterial?
1 comment:
Not immaterial. It's just...not.
I'm so sorry, Jo. Losing her must have been terrifically horrible for you. You always speak so highly of her. She must have been something.
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